Trusting The Shepherd

This isn’t your average New Year’s Eve post… Sure, most people take stock of the year, what went well, or not so well, and turn them into resolutions for the next year…that they probably won’t even keep…

But sitting here tonight, I find myself desperately looking back over the year and wondering what God is trying to do in my life…

Because just last night, driving home with my sister after going to the movies, I told her how frustrated I feel with my whole leg situation…

It’s been 4 months…

4 months since I found out that my ankle is basically deteriorating…

4 months of waiting on God to heal me…

4 months of waiting for the doctors to tell me more than just “well, we don’t really know what to do”…

4 months of being told that I don’t have enough faith…

4 months of being told to “suck it up.”

And after complaining to her, she asked me “Well, what do you think God is trying to do through this situation?”

And I kind of just disregarded her question, because honestly, I just wanted to vent last night…

Fast forward to this afternoon: My knee on the opposite leg is sprained and they want to send me for an MRI in a week, and told me I should stay off my feet for a while, because obviously I already have the other leg to worry about.



This is not ok.

I do not have the time, nor the patience for this to be happening right now.

So now I’m asking:

God, what am I missing? Who are you trying to be for me in this moment? What are you trying to tell me? I promise, I’m listening!


Stop what?

Stop complaining.

Stop worrying.

Stop getting caught up in the busy work of life, and just sit with Me.

I literally can’t do anything but sit right now, God.

I know.

So, a little less Martha, a little more Mary?


I don’t know how to do that…

That’s why I’ve had to go to extreme measures…

…The Shepherd sometimes has to break a wandering lamb’s leg in order to teach it to stay close…

 Now do you see?

Did You have to be so literal?

Did you have to be so stubborn?



Here’s to 2015… a year that’s starting with me stopping… and listening… and learning… and Trusting The Shepherd.

Psalm 23

The Lord is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
 He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord







Mary Had A Little Lamb

Have you ever thought about this children’s nursery rhyme as having a deeper meaning? I certainly never did, but for some reason, today I was listening to the radio and the song “Merry Go Round” by Kacey Musgraves came on, and in it there’s a line about “Mary had a little lamb.” and I just thought about Jesus. Maybe it’s because it’s lent, but I decided to look up and see if the rhyme had any Christian roots. However, according to wikipedia, it does not. But I’m going to quickly try and give it a little more meaning today.

Mary had a little lamb,
whose fleece was white as snow.

And everywhere that Mary went,
the lamb was sure to go.

It followed her to school one day
which was against the rule.

It made the children laugh and play,
to see a lamb at school.

And so the teacher turned it out,
but still it lingered near,

And waited patiently about,
till Mary did appear.

“Why does the lamb love Mary so?”
the eager children cry.

“Why, Mary loves the lamb, you know.”
the teacher did reply.

Mary is the mother of Jesus, who is also called the Lamb of God. A lamb in the old testament is considered a “clean animal” and was used to redeem an unclean animal. See Exodus 13. Or quit reading this and  watch this sermon by Ps. Robert Morris.

Then the poem/song talks about how the lamb followed her, wherever she went. The same is true of Jesus. He is always with us, by us, in us, around us. He is always there. Ok, pretty straight forward, right?

But now it gets interesting, almost prophetic when it says, “It followed her to school one day, which was against the rule.” The American education system started out on Christian principles, kids used to learn to read using the Bible. It wasn’t until a few decades ago that prayer and any mention of God started being banned in our schoolhouses. So at the time this poem was written, it was not against the rule, but now it is.  In the poem it talks about how the Lamb made the children laugh and play, which is consistent with the Bible’s teaching of how Jesus loved the children and how our joy is found in Him.

Then we see that the teacher turned out the lamb, but still it lingered near until Mary came back. Not to get too political, but after Newtown, people asked where was God. The simple answer was, He was always near those children, just not invited in. I think that Jesus is still waiting for us to invite Him back into our hearts, back into our lives.

The best part of this poem/ song is the end, when it asks why the lamb loves Mary, and the teacher says it’s because Mary loves the lamb. It’s a relationship. Why do I love Jesus? Because He first loved me. Jesus is loving you, too, and He’s lingering near, waiting for you to come back.


Who knew a children’s nursery rhyme could serve as a reminder of Jesus’ love?