Waiting is the worst. I like to think that I’m a patient person, but this past week has been a struggle. I feel like my brain and my faith have been playing a game of tug-o-war. It’s sad how quickly I can be so sure of God’s goodness one minute, and afraid of bad news from the doctor in the next.
I think the time we spend waiting on things is when we get into the most trouble. Like, when I’m really hungry between meals a big mac starts sounding like the most delicious thing in the world. Or when I’m waiting on my sister to get ready so we can go out together, I start over-applying my eyeliner until I look like a hooker. Bad decisions come in the in-between moments.
There’s a song by Francesca Battistelli called “Time in Between.” I included the link so you can listen to it and so I don’t have to break it down line by line for you. I’ll just touch on a couple things that I like about this song.
For one, I like how it starts off talking about the time between Jesus was born and the time He died on the cross. I think a lot of Christians forget about this time. Yes, it’s important to remember how He died to save us, but it’s also important to remember that He lived and walked on this earth the same as we do. He knows our struggles and He can feel our pain.
Another part that I liked in this song is when she talks about how easy it is to be robbed of our peace. Peace means nothing is broken and nothing is missing. So when we feel like we’re missing something, we give a foothold for the enemy to attack. There is no better time for satan to strike than when we are moving through a valley in life. That’s why it’s important to always be alert when things feel like they’re going pretty good. It’s in those moments when we feel the most betrayed by God because something happened and we want to know why… when the real reason why is that we weren’t looking.
The part in the last chorus really hit me It says, “It’s the time in between the middle of two thieves that says everything.” For me, it really does say everything. Jesus went to the cross to die in the most painful, disgraceful way imaginable just for me (ok, and you, too). That kind of love is unimaginable.
My pastor often says, “Salvation isn’t just having the knowledge that you get to go to Heaven. Salvation is having everything that Heaven has here on earth.” I think it’s easy to forget that, even though some people recite the Lord’s prayer on a daily basis. Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done on EARTH as it is in Heaven…
Sometimes we don’t always see the big picture. Sometimes, the times while we’re waiting for a certain event to happen, we miss out on all the other things that God is doing. Sometimes, we’re like Esau. We give away our birthright for a bowl of soup while we’re hungry. If we could just see that time we spend waiting is making us stronger for the next trial, or if we could just see that there’s a purpose for the things that happen to us. How many times have you gone through something, that while it was happening you thought you weren’t going to make it, but afterwards, you were thankful for it? I guess what I’m taking a long time to say is that we only know in part, but God knows everything. He’s got the foresight to know that things are happening so that we can get to the end goal. So even though I’m waiting on results from the doctor, I’m going to spend my time looking at God and holding onto His promises in the time in between.
For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
–1 Corinthians 13:12