It’s crazy to think that 2012 is nearly over. I still have my list of resolutions hanging up on the wall, and only a few of them have been checked off. I thought that the changes that happened this year would have manifested outwardly, but despite my disappointment that I didn’t lose weight AGAIN this year, I’m happy with the changes made within.
I’ve always known there was more to life than being liked, but this year, I realized that I no longer cared what other people thought of me. I adopted Glenn Beck’s motto of “Question with boldness, hold to the truth, speak without fear.” Although this has proved to be costly on my Facebook friend’s list (down to only 125 friends), I have become more outgoing and more willing to engage a person who challenges my ideals and values.
I also learned what it means to truly seek God. I am in a very good church family that has built a solid foundation and a welcoming atmosphere for the Holy Spirit to move… but I took for granted what it meant to be in the presence of God. But after a couple of really good retreats/camps/conferences I learned that I don’t need to be in church to feel the tangible presence of God, and that He is ready and waiting for me to call on Him. I guess humbleness is also something I learned this year, because I’ve had to admit that I cannot do anything apart from God.
So, what am I going to do with all these changes in the coming year? I’m going to have a New Year’s Revolution. I don’t want to sit down and analyze all the things I’m doing wrong or hate about myself. I want to focus on the good in me, and use it to change the bad around me. I want to keep pressing in and holding on to the things that matter. Someday, when I look back on my life, I want to know that I pushed to be the change I wish to see in the world. If you feel the same, I invite you to join me on this journey.